"...You will die in 3 to 9 months"

I was taking care of a 66 year old female. She had survived cancer of the urethra (the tube through which urine exits the body). The radiation took its toll on her. It scarred her vagina, clitoris and urethral opening. She developed inflammation of a portion of her colon and had to have that portion removed. With all this, the lady that lay in the bed the morning I saw her was bright, cheerful and smiled almost apologetically for the embarrassment of her condition. What brought her to the hospital was not any of the above conditions I described-- she had weathered those and survived. Now she was leaking stool from her vulva. It was an incontinent leak she could not control. It was getting worse. The final in a succession of specialists to see her was a gynecological oncologist. On the phone later he told he had seen a lot of such cases before, having trained at one of the country's leading cancer centers.

His word in the patient's chart were direct and poignant: "This is a terminal condition. In my experience, life expectancy is usually 3 to 9 months." When I walked into the patient's room, she had already her the pronouncement from him. He had been her gynecologist for 15 years and cared enough to tell her the truth without the hemming and hawing less experienced or less caring physicians will indulge in out of their discomfort with the news.

There she lay. She looked at me with eyes reflecting fear, confusion, sadness and searching. Should she seek a second opinion? Did I agree with the assessment? As I gave her my opinion, she told me what an excellent doctor I was. She wasn't being facetious. She meant it. I didn't feel like patting myself on the back or accepting a compliment.

I left the room with respect and admiration for this wonderful woman who could accept news of an imminent death with such grace and fortitude -- much better, I will confess, than the 'excellent doctor'